An Ugly Maria Book?

So if you’ve ran across this blog you’ve probably noticed that it’s been awhile since I’ve written anything. Hey, it happens. Right? I keep thinking I’m going to remedy this and it keeps getting pushed off. The truth is.. my head has been everywhere but certain productive aspects. And while, I’m thinking about this I wanted to get it out.

There’s been some personal things I’ve been dealing with over the last few years, and over the last year I feel I’ve lost myself to several areas of those things. Someday I’ll explain that further so you aren’t left scratching your head and wondering what the hell I’m talking about. But in the mean while, this is something I’ve been working on. And lately I’ve been thinking I want to channel all this stuff that is running through my head into one element. While I should be thinking blog, my head goes foremost to book. So, I’ve been thinking, and I’m going to write it here to hold me accountable, that I am going to write a book, The Ugly Maria book. It will talk about insecurities, fear, all the daily things that we allow to get in our ways of progress, and ultimately, how to get out of your way to make the life you want. Now I know this idea isn’t new. However, from my point-of-view it is. I want to be able to tell my story of all of the above and how I go about overcoming them so that perhaps I can help you if you face the same things. Because as much as we always think we are alone, we never are. What do you think?


NaPoWriMo Day 6: Rise

Heavenly sleep

Deep within your twisted dreams,

Streams of blackened smoke surround;

Shrouded thoughts of darkness keep.

Guardian hold you

Slow to dancing light,

Spraying  comfort to linger till eyes open;

Rise and leave these pains trapped in sleep.

NaPoWriMo Day 5: Hope is the Thing

Hope is the thing

With feathers that circles in the soul

Singing the tune without words never stopping, never shall

And sweetest in the surf is heard

Soaring beat with the storm

That could silence the little Lovebird

Keeping so many warm

I’ve heard it in the frozen lands

And on the reddest seas

Yet never have I heard it ask

Any song of me

NaPoWriMo Day 4: Sweetly Said

Sweetly said you are my everything

Through the woods and rocky shapes

Nothing said, nothing moved

Perfect still as the moments before

So I am so behooved

To tell you thus

Shamefully blushed you know it all

But sweetly said you are

NaPoWriMo Day 3: Deliciously Sweet

Stretching defiantly into the air it wavered sweet,

Aiming for any shoe, any shoe that would just grab him;

Driving for another who would mirror the things he sought,

Wishing for that one loafer in which he could be caught.

Forcefully and maniacally it came before he knew,

Sweeping the slimy stickiness from the gravel pavement.

“At last,” he swooned as wind rushed madly through his open arms,

As sneaker scrapped so ferociously maiming all his charms.

NaPoWriMo Day 2: The Night Before


i never saw any so pretty

as those the night before

the blaze was ever burning

ashes sifted, scattered to the earthen floor

faces shifted with dying screams

timber screeching, reaching into the darken sore

but i never saw any so peaceful

as those stars outreached above

blinded to the people crying

so removed from pain and gore

NaPoWriMo Day 1: The Easiest Thing

it is the easiest thing

just rolls off the tongue

a breeze that you sail upon

good-bye you yell

as they bellow back

a regular linguist don juan

it takes hours this joyful bliss

a confident builder plus

a public mess

that lifts the spirit

it’s a beater of the bust